'I missed you. Shutting you out is killing me.'

You came to my life once again.

I keep telling to myself not to fall in love with you again.

Because once I fall head over heels for you, 

it will be hard for me to turn back and it will easy for me to fall all over again.

I'm scared to take the risk again. 

Sigh. 

i'm back

Back to blogging! (:

So happy that we, Gamelan Naga Kencana(GNK) is on the Berita Harian. 

But now, I think I got to forget about gamelan.

As for now, I need to focus on my FYP and study.

2 more months and insya'allah I can graduate.

Somehow, I'm scared and worried.

I did not know what to do after I graduate.

My uncle and aunt really want me to further my study to University.

But the fact is I know I can't make it as my gpa is not good.

Sigh.

Can I just be a small kids again? 

Not to worry about anything.

Just be happy and stay healthy.

But I know everyone need to grow up and face it bravely.

Life is not easy uh?

So hopefully, I will be able to go through all of this.

I know Allah will always be there to help me.

Please give me the strength to go through all of this.

impossible

 "It was the love of my life and it was just bad timing."

I really do miss you.

Miss the midnight call, the morning text and your advised.

But I know it's impossible for us to be together. 

Now, we're just like stranger.

I've been waiting for you to text me and say 'hi' and 'how are you?'.

But I know you won't even want to text me now.

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I'm sorry that whenever you need me, I'm not there for you.

I'll always be busy with school and Gamelan.

I just need your understanding.

This is my last year of school so I need to work extra harder so that I can graduate.

I don't want to disappoint my parents.

I really hope that you understand me. 

(:

Up and Down.

I should 'NOT GIVE UP' and 'KEEP GOING'!

Ya allah, please give me the strength to go through all of this.

11 days of school break is just not enough. 

I'll spend my holidays with FYP, study for UT1 and do nutrition assignment. 

I just need a break!

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2 days of camp with Gamelan Naga Kencana was super duper awesome.

It was fun to bond with the newcomers and other seniors.

Unfortunately, the second day I did not get to play the 'Running Man' game.

I heard it was fun to play but sadly, I couldn't join the fun with them.
As I am in the lab doing experiment for FYP.

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Oh well, I just got to wait for another camp with them so that I can play the 'Running Man' game.

Black & White

I AM MENTALLY TIRED!

Yes, there were too much things to do but so little times.

Busy with the FYP reports, nutrition assignment, school and gamelan practices.

Oh my, I need to calm myself down. 

One word to describe about my school of Year 3, Semester 1: TOUGH !

Now, I got a competitive classmates and it's difficult for me to catch up and even to get a good grade.

I should say BYEBYE to grade A and B.

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 I really do miss those times.

They didn't fail to make me smile and laugh.

(:

But now, it's not the same anymore as everyone are busy with their own life.

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Esplanade performance

It was a great experience to perform at the Esplanade Concourse.

I'm having fun with all of my Gamelan Naga Kencana friends.

Thanks to Stan for giving us the opportunity to perform with you.

We shared the stage with those primary school kids.

I'm proud of them.

It was great to Hi-5 with the primary school kids after the performance. 

I admitted that I'm tired after the 2 days of performance.

But I still got to force myself to go to school for FYP.

Then got SLA to promote our IG to all of our RP students to join our IG.

Now, I need to finish up my Nutrition assignment and my FYP report.

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I need to be strong and believe in myself.

I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting